My reality.
Cancer is not a battle on one front. It is a daily physical, mental and emotional battle. Even if you wanted to forget you have cancer for a moment, you can’t. Physically, you are exhausted. You have joint aches and pains from all the different medications that you are poisoning your body with. All to prolong your life. That’s ironic! Your body looks like a pin cushion from all the biopsies, blood draws, and injections. Mentally, you’re fighting to stay positive and maintain hope. Holding on to the belief that miracles do exist and you could be one of them. Emotionally, it is easy to feel isolated and alone. Because even though other people are in your situation, everyone’s journey is uniquely different, regardless of how similar they appear. Everyone’s cancer is different. Everyone’s cancer reacts different to treatment. Everyone’s body tolerates treatment differently.
Currently, when I look in the mirror, I still see Brittany. I still have my hair, my breasts, and I have not wasted away to a skeleton. But I am not the same. I will never be who I was. I reject the saying, “this is my new normal.” To say that, I would have to mourn my old life and self.
Instead, I prefer to say this is a new chapter. Each life is a story, full of chapters. I can’t rewrite the pages, but I can direct the narrative.
I choose to fight, physically, mentally and emotionally, daily. I choose to fight because life is precious and it is short. I fight because there is so much of the world I want to see and have yet to explore. I choose to fight because of the love I have, and have been given, for family and friends. I choose to fight because God has placed me exactly where I am supposed to be and He will carry me through, no matter how difficult times may be.
After 16 days off chemo, due to a low White Blood Count (WBC), I have been given the green light to restart. My WBC, specifically neutrophils, have finally rebounded! And while it is small, my tumor shrunk another 0.5cm. Still going in the right direction.🙏🏼
Kelly O'Neill Been thinking about you Brittany . Your words and courage give people strength in the battles they too are facing, big or small. ♥️
Sylwia Marano Awe. Thinking of you Brit. I think we all have days of feeling alone no matter what we go through and it’s a not so pleasant feeling. But I know you have amazing family & friends who are helping you through this battle 💗 sending love, strength, and prayers your way.
Kathy Ewing So true! I can relate to this on all those levels! Miracles do happen! Stay strong and positive!
Veronica Wade Hey Brittany please know, you don’t face this battle alone, God’s got your back, he will never leave you or forsake you... he is using you as a vessel to inspire us all... keep fighting and victory will be yours...💕
Linda Langdon Sitter Prayers for you! You are an inspiration 😘. Stay strong beautiful girl!
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